You know when you finally see how stupid you have been and it feels like you can't really accept it? It feels like a lie, like a dream. No way I was so stupid for all this time! Yet now you finally see the truth and you are like, is it possible I was THAT stupid? If you don't you might be lucky. I think I have been and I am trying to re examine it and my actions regarding this. Trying to find a flaw in my recent awakening, which will convince me that NO, I was right all along. It's just my recent thinking about it that is illogical. That I am missing something. I am talking about things I did with my computer setup and what followed that. I will update when I have something solid.